Saturday, December 27, 2008

guts wrench out in the open making a spectacle for all

I believe that at times one just needs to write about love, irrespective of everything. I don't know where it came from but it just did....


not knowing how to flaunt my passion
i flounder at showing it to you
if you only gave me a chance
the gates would open up wrenching us both
how do I tell you about this constant craving
this deep sated need for you
which eats at my guts and fills me with longing
words cannot convey my loneliness to you
yet I know you sense it
although you would rather not acknowledge it
how do I pour out my love for you
your very thought heightens my senses
I wish I could reach out to your very soul
and submerge myself within you
at oddest of times tears fill my eyes
unknown to me visible to all
my minds speaks to you
yet I know I can't reach you
walking away is easy for you
just let me know how do I do it
nonchalantly, just the way you did

yes, I will live but barely so
for a long time to come or never

42 comments:

anthonynorth said...

To know it but not receive can be an all-encompassing feeling. I think we've all been here at times.

linda may said...

unrequited love?

Linda Jacobs said...

All I can say is that he's got to be regretting walking away from so much love! I think that says he wasn't good enough for you.

Before I met my husband, I had a boyfriend who walked away and it physically hurt. Hearts really do break!

Someone deserving WILL be along for you.

This was beautifully written!

sage said...

Wow, that's powerful and I'm sure the person to whom the poem is written to will be flattered

Marguerite said...

What a powerful piece! "Gut wrenching" is an appropriate description. All I can say is, "his loss." You deserve some that will return your love.

Alison May said...

Oh I so relate to this.. thank you for being my first commenter on Morning Lies...

murat11 said...

Beautiful rave, GT.

glowby said...

I am in this place too. Sometimes I wish I could feel anger or hatred, so the other feelings would more quickly subside. But I can't.

Granny Smith said...

I believe that your abundance of love will bring you happiness in the long run, perhaps not with the person to whom this is addressed, but, believe it or not,there will be someone else that you will love and whom you will love equally. In the meanwhile there will be hurt. Most of us have been there.

Lucy said...

oh boy, this is such a familiar feeling that I am so glad I am not going through anymore! I hope this is fiction and you are just an amazing writer. I hate to think of you suffering with heartache like you describe. (and describe sO well!)
the desperation one feels when hungry for the love in return is so captured here Gautami. great post.

Whitesnake said...

Bloody brilliant!

BJ Roan said...

Very powerful, well-written piece.

keithsramblings said...

What strong words. The passion flows out from this piece

quin browne said...

hurts the heart in all the right ways...

Clockworkchris said...

This poem is really one is the best I've read from you because of the true feeling you put into it and the totally realistic personality it has. I know it's been ages but this touched my heart.
For Glowby I wish I could turn off the anger and hatred sometimes. I just want to be sad again.

SweetTalkingGuy said...

Hi Gautami, I feel like you are speaking to my soul... If only!
Anyway, they say that time is a great healer and I for one have found this to be true. I feel for you...

floreta said...

ah, unrequited love.. or maybe, relationship gone sour? i relate to this.. always.

present said...

"I wish I could reach out to your very soul and submerge myself within you". Beautful. To know and be known.

Herb Urban said...

Achingly beautiful. This is obviously written about someone undeserving of your love and affection.

John Tran said...

Nicely done... unrequited love is frustrating...

Vaidya_Vaakya said...

Painful....to not exist for someone who means existence for you.

Leatherdykeuk said...

Nicely done. I think we all recall that gut-wrenching need for someone.

Doe said...

beautiful - tugged at me heartstrings..and
i hope it's only the geography that's keeping you apart yet i feel it's his/her loss and not yours; there's bound to be someone who needen't teach
you how to walk away nonchalantly!?

much peace

Annamari said...

"the gates would open up wrenching us both"- it captures passion so well. And I can relate to the last lines...

Devil Mood said...

Hmm, I will live but barely so - I loved that :)

Tumblewords: said...

Well done - surely tears at the heart and marks the fine line between love returned and love not.

jadey said...

Very nicely done. Sometimes love happens at the wierdest times wierdest places but I am sure in time you will to find love again.

if said...

your passion is clear...your love undefined because of lack of communication (?)...human!!

SandyCarlson said...

Gotta do it. Well done. I admore the candor. I know the feeling. Thanks.

angie said...

Wow!
I love the image of "tears fill my eyes/unknown to me visible to all"

A powerful declaration, Gautami!

ChefDruck said...

So tragic Gautamy, and so powerful. You really captured that unrequited desperate love.

Asma Ahsan said...

I will live but barely so...

A good friend is going through a terrible relationship where the guy is not sensitive to her love for him and keeps her hanging on for marriage. She can relate to this.

Love that is not reciprocated is a real killer!

Winnie the poohi said...

unrequited love beautifully expressed!

Loved the poem!

neilina said...

Loved the way the poem ended....
"yes, I will live but barely so
for a long time to come or never"

Captain Molecule said...

"walking away is easy for you
just let me know how do I do it
nonchalantly, just the way you did"

Soulful words that speak to my being - words that can rarely be a product of fiction.
And yes, sometimes you just have to write about love. The all-consuming kind.

rob kistner said...

deeply moving Gautami...

forgetfulone said...

Awesome poem. Raw and emotional.

Onion said...

Oh thank you for the encouragement!!!

I don't know if I'm just PMSing or what, but that poem brought a tear to my eye...

Thank you!

Tammie Lee said...

raw
honest
passionate

this inspired thoughts of relationship with another as well as the deepest intimate relationship with oneself

Melody said...

~I will live but barely so for a long time to come or never~ I know this feeling very well, but there will be that person who deserves all that you have to give. Beautifully written. Thank you.

Nairobi said...

hey gautami!!
loved this post so much....
can completely understand how it feels when someone walks out from ur life...

gel said...

I ache for you. Romantic love is rare, in my opinion. Too sadly, many of us find that we can love but not have a life with someone. Yet the questions can plague our soul when we feel it would work...

This pieces certainly spills from your heart and, as always, is written well. I hope the new year brings a new special someone into your life. You deserve the best, Gautami.

hugs,
gel