Wednesday, December 29, 2010

singing soprano

crumbs of bread on that table
wedge of a mango falling out 
of that pickled jar
I evade the chaos
unbuckle my gloves
and sit down to make a list
leaky tap reminds me of Mozart song
that list  I make goes like this..
I need a few sopranos
some notes to go with it
maybe that opera singer too
Bach will not do,
Beethoven is not what I wish for
I only need music
loud, noisy, nonsensical
that will clear the chaos you see here

Tuesday, December 28, 2010

patching up...last line first line

patches in snatches

patches of sunlight
I try to gather
in my palm locking all in my fingers

I also gather beads
thread them with wires of sunlight
enclosing the warmth

those snatches of wind
(fancy those!)
I collect in my hand towel

in the upcoming days of drought
I will take all of these out
and fill my emptiness

"can anyone hold transient nostalgia?"

I look the last line of the poem above, patches in snatches, and made that the first line in the poem below and let it go wherever it wanted to, all by itself.

patching up

can anyone hold transient nostalgia?
Is it not an absurd concept
dancing inside one's head

if forks toppled over
spoons held their head high
bowl of dough mixed so well

but why talk of mundane
in the midst of all this?
dancing thoughts can have a pattern

"let it sit for a while, I will find a way 
out of nostalgia, absurd or not"

Saturday, December 25, 2010

solemnity marred by hilarity

I stood there outside, in that cold
but feeling the warm of happy people
I don't know what I was waiting for
but definitely not him
did you see that?
the white-bearded fat man rolled through
the church doors broke apart from his weight
the solemn occasion was marred by hilarity
when the fat man groaned
I ran towards him
I couldn't believe what I heard?
he wanted a comb to groom his hair
the reindeer laughed while he fumbled
they were busy checking his manifesto
"was his fall in the agenda of that day?"

Wednesday, December 22, 2010

dead woman and her wants

dead woman wants a clock, one that records her space in a time of her choosing
a space that can't be defined by demarcations, but by her aura
dead woman can't emit an aura, and that makes her sad and she sits down to cry
her tears can't be seen, or felt by her but they flow heedlessly
a mirror, dead woman wishes to see herself in that, all her glory revealed to herself
if only glory could be changed into an object, she would be glad to do that
silence of the dead woman is so deadening, that it scares her too
she strings in the silence, wears it on her neck, wishing someone to buy it from her
dead that she is, yet she wishes to educate us about her ghostly appearance
shadow of herself is so interesting, we can see myriads of colours reflected on sky
swift movements of the ropes topples over her, she is so dead, yet she lives


I am hooked to the dead man's poetry. I find that it gives me the freedom to pursue my thoughts in ways, I can't explain or understand. But I like the outcome. I feel so liberated after writing these pieces. And for the last two days, I was thinking maybe my muse is going to die. Dead man's poetry WILL get me out of it.

Sunday, December 19, 2010


writing dead man's poetry
I think of the alive too
when spirits dance-

ghosts bridge it
I see those shadows
so Santa, help me plaster myself 
on a wall forever

dead woman and her stillness on a cold december morning

dead woman waits for a word, a word that comes from him
it can be any anything but it will make her alive
being dead is so liberating, she can go anywhere
but she stops short of going to him, waiting for a sign, a signal
stillness of her dead circumstances shows her new heights
certain heights she can climb by herself, but for some she needs him
in the corner of death, she turns around, walks in circles
circles don't really take her back to the same place, she finds the tangents too
on a cold december morning, with a hot cup of tea, dead woman waits patiently
she jingles her bangles, loves the sound, but prefers him tangling with her
dead, she can't see her feet, she can see his, and thinks of those as her own

"if only she could embrace what he possesses, and knows he is aware of that"

Saturday, December 18, 2010

dead man and his bottle of wine

dead man gets out a bottle of wine, one he had given up when he was alive
when he was alive he was more dead, shunning wine and fine dine
dead man takes a swig, grimaces and spits it out at his own feet
his feet feel so heavy, he had walked miles and miles before his final sleep
dead man is thinking, what is he thinking? OMG, elves are sooo 2009!
that was the year he died, elves carried his body, buried him in a hole
dead man throws away the empty bottle, picks another to drink all night
he doesn't wish to remember how his mind triumphed over his desires,
dead man plans to drink as long as he wants, no one can stop him
death was a welcome diversion, and where have the elves gone?


Also check out dead man and his shoe painting

Wednesday, December 15, 2010

a picture

a picture
nothing more
blue lifts my mood
I wish to hug that child
his father is lost to him
crown is a burden for the baby too
he is unaware of it as yet
he wants his father to love him, 

"king holds his child, 
but his heart is as dead as his queen"

dead man and his shoe painting

when the dead man wants to dabble in painting, he arranges his brushes
he brushes away the dirt from those shoes, applies a base coat, leaves them to dry
the dead man takes out a charcoal, that piece he pilfered from a pyre,
he sketches on the shoes, a design so chaotic, but orderly for him
on a palette, the dead man mixes paints, and first fills the cracks
(but why paint on a shoe, he utters loudly, he has misgivings too)
the dead man knows, shoes denote freedom, that journey which goes on and on
one shoe can fall apart,  other one might last longer, as did his twin
thinking of his zygoted part, dead man becomes sad and melancholic
but his brush never stops, it goes over corners, makes lines, curves and dots
the dead man's lean brush tells a story on the uppers of shoes
he makes it as easy for us, as complicated as it was for him

"our dead man knows his story needs to be told but where has he gone?"


Thanks to Big Tent Poetry, I got to know about Marvin Bell and his Dead Man Poetry. For more Dead Man poems by Marvin Bell, do check out the site.

Tuesday, December 14, 2010


place I used to be
when I was on the threshold of youth
that oak tree
where a three legged dog slept at night
on the edge of the lake
holding hands with a boy
I kissed in the dark nights
the dog is gone
boy is gone
I go there to find palpable emptiness
see you standing in the shadows
your arms reaching out for me

"you bring newness to this place of forgotten era"

Saturday, December 11, 2010


broken breath, I left it
shivering on the stairs
icicles as its innards
burnt by frost
now see fire
engulfing dirt
my aorta can take it
while I bleed happiness

winning me over with pointy-toed shoes

to staid for too long
I needed a makeover
I painted my nails green
designed them with dots and lines
when I showed those to you
you smirked
and handed me something
I unwrapped it
an involuntary gasp of shock 
escaped my lips 
when I opened the shoe box
and saw the pointy-toed shoes
I turned around
and hit you hard with those heels

"If you had got me boots, you wouldn't have been booted"

Thursday, December 09, 2010

who hid that story for us to find

gaps bolted to metal-
I search for nuts
dropping the key,
while you align walls.
I move that metallic eyesore,
paring dirt-
we find a hidden era,
in an unbelievable quiet.

when I lock it up again
we turn around 
to see something, 
maybe for the last time

"I savour that thread which ties us"

Wednesday, December 08, 2010


from the tangents,
I take apart the circle
that point stands out as a judge
scared, the arrows scatter away
I bring back the ray,
plant it near the point

bereft, circle stands alone
(point was its safety valve)
I give it a triangle,
yet it refuses to look at me
I feel the windless icy chill
while circle collapses

ignoring me,
the point runs towards it,
when it embraces the circle,
it comes alive,
ray, tangent and triangle
dance to their beats in nightfall

"out of their periphery, I draw the curtains"

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

destined wanderings

going from one place to the other
each day, every passing day
he longs for the complacent days

to feel the morning entering his bones
turning into lazy afternoons
and cozy evenings

to meet his friends
to walk the sidewalks
to ponder over the lake

when the chug of the train
bring hims to his destination
he walks the asphalt

and sees her at the window
a book in her hand
but a pause in her demeanour

when their eyes meet
she disappears from his vision-
at the door she ruffles his hair

"when he encloses into her, he finds in her, his lucidity" 

Sunday, December 05, 2010

fairy tale

golden wings 
it stood there near that stream
creature so beautiful
I circled from it
it was gone
I felt an itch on my shoulder blades

had I turned to a fairy?

Saturday, December 04, 2010


in the bin of tangled up holiday,
lights switch off all by themselves.
my fingers cut into my palm
but I search for my platinum ring.
in the darkness
when a soft breath moves against me;
I push it to the plateau
of shaking rattle of my body.
I fill the leaks,
while you free me with your tenseness.

"when my solitaire falls to ground, my plateau becomes a mountain"

Friday, December 03, 2010

astral music

I nudge corners
into the centre
they resist
I persist
my hammer hits again
a column resonates
I hear astral music
in a sandbox

door frames shake
as I chisel away the concrete
I want mud walls
on which I can do finger painting

"enough space you saved for me, give it to me now"

Wednesday, December 01, 2010

snowed out

I counted the rows of buttons 
on my overcoat
some ungodly reason
I found three missing
I shivered outside the door
window reflecting the dour outside
my breath misted my eyes
it was an effort to see the walls
I felt the demise of my memories

you know all the details
someday you will help me 
in the revival of those
now I wouldn't change my life.

"how absurd, that I can think like this standing in the snow"