Tuesday, May 06, 2008

Complacently seeking happiness


It has been two weeks since I wrote a tuesday post. More due to lack of internet in my new house. It has been more than two weeks, I have moved here. However, it is yet to become a home. I and mom decided to move here so as to be nearer my younger brother. It was not a rash decision. We took more than a year to consider and re-consider before making it happen. We had lived in the previous house for 14 years. My dad's memories are there. This house, although belonging to my eldest brother is new and is a good house to be in with all modern facilities.

It does not have any negative points to speak of. Yet, I am feeling depressed and lost. I miss my familiar place, my old corner etc etc. Is that difficult to fathom? Am I going to find happiness here? I hope so, I want so, I wish so. My mom cannot be happy, if I am not. Maybe I have let complacency rule me for a long time. I need to shake it off and get into the spirit of adventure.

Maybe I will go and buy diamond studded platinum earrings for myself. Nothing like diamonds to cheer a female up. Long time, I have indulged myself like that!

20 comments:

Lezlie said...

I'm not surprised at all that you feel a little sad. Especially if that's were the memories of your dad were. I remember being quite taken aback by how sad I was to move out of my apartment into the house we bought a few years ago. I *hated* that apartment. But at the same time, there were memories there that were hard to leave.

A little shopping therapy should help! :-)
Lezlie

keith hillman said...

I'm sure you will soon find a corner to call your own. I wish you well in your new home

Just someone said...

I can empathize; we moved too, recently to a much better place, and it took us a while to really think of this place as home (and we hadn't even lived as long in our prev. home) - slowly but surely, this place feels like home...

I am sure you will find great happiness in this new wonderful place and also be able to create beautiful memories here...

Noah The Great said...

I hope everything works out for the best! I've moved many times.

Whitesnake said...

Letting go of something you love is difficult but if you don't you own nothing.

I always believe by letting go things will flow back to you in time, Could be this October could be sooner could be later.

Memories you have stay with you. Starting out a fresh is always good for the mind heart and soul.

:-)

Greyscale Territory said...

A very touching post. Moving tends to beg for a reassessment of what makes you happy. Refreshing an outlook is not always bad. Sometimes you find even happiness you may have forgotten. Keep eyes wide open!

Gemma

anthonynorth said...

I've lived in so many houses, and the secret is to turn them into a home.

paisley said...

e given time,, anywhere can become familiar,, but not every where can be "home...."... hope the earrings are just what the doctor ordered!!!!!

here is my entry for two for tuesday:

good girls

sister AE said...

I have a lot of catching up to do, I'm behind on reading posts, but I had to say that it sounds like you need to do some 'nesting," whether that is cleaning or putting-away or arranging or adding. Doing things that involve you putting your hands, your impression on the place.

Michelle Johnson said...

I am sorry to hear you are sad but, a move like this is a big change and it will take time to settle into a routine. Your new house will become home in time and new memories will be made. Earrings however is a girl's best friend. You must go shopping and splurge on yourself. Allow everything some time and I am sure you will find your comfort zone again. Have a nice night.

noni said...

when we r too Selfish then we feel sad this way.... we not going anywhere from this earth....all places are loveable and adjustable, just need little time and fresh attitude toward new belongings

gingatao said...

I'm sure will settle into it and make new favourite corners and special places where the light shines through the window on a slant, sometimes it is important to remember that a smile is free and easy and increases the amount of beauty in the world by one tiny fraction of a rainbow, that thought makes more smiles and soon everyone is dancing in their own way,

Borut said...

I've been living in this little house of ours all my life... I can imagine your turmoil...!:(

b said...

I could not help but think about the post "The late arrival of my soul!" It will be coming in any day now.

http://torristravels.blogspot.com/2008/01/late-arrival-of-my-soul.html

b

Daily Panic said...

Did you know that cats get attached to their homes? Sometimes if they are moved they will find a way to get back to their original home.
Hope you adjust to your new home and find it to be purrr fect.

gautami tripathy said...

Noni, you know nothing about me. That means you don't comment about things you don't understand.

Get that?

sage said...

I generally find it sad to move, even when the move is not far away. Homes are haunted with our memories--good, bad and sad

May happiness and contentment find you in your new home.

polona said...

change is never easy... you have to grow roots in the new place again... fingers crossed you manage to do it soon

noni said...

Oho…..seems like you got hurt……if it so then of course sorry for my “words”.
Agree that I might not understand the things as you explained….actually I saw it with simple way about our attachment to things, accept new things, ignoring old things, adjusting to ever changing world etc.
”Selfish” word not mean to be personal but I generalized it as our desire to holding thing forever, it can be “me” or “he/she” all became sad same way. (But… some things are really countable to any person…memories, comfort zone, likeness etc. And letting me knowing your disliking on critical approach to a subject that you raised might be get personal, so as you said no commenting again…...you may sure about it.)

(This time I like to be supportive!!) And wish you soon get your happiness at your new home and move on…

anieszka said...

Love your writing. Keep up the great work!