Apartment, Began, Numb
*Update (12/03/2008): I kind of cheated for 3WW! As two words were already present in this post, I added the third one and reposted!
I know it sucks but this was my first reaction on looking at the prompt at One Single Impression: Kindness.
~when mind deviates
maybe what I need
is a bit of kindness~
March is a busy month for us who are in the teaching field. We have exams and worst part of it is the evaluation of the exam papers. Everything else takes a back seat. As we all know results are time bound, we cannot afford to be slack. I think my stress began with the 200 odd answersheets I have received for marking!
Lately I have started to feel tired. I don't want to do anything other than sleep. I don't want to read, watch TV, or write poetry (hence these personal pieces!). Worse, I don't want to evaluate answersheets! Maybe I am being plain lazy. I am definitely not depressed. Or maybe I am as my mind is kind of numb. How does one cope? Believe me, I am sleeping more than 12 hours a day for the last two days.
One of the reasons, I think is, I had severe stomach cramps for three days and the medication is making me sleepy. I don't like this feeling at all. I feel as if my body has shut down with no energy even to move a finger. Early onset of summer has not helped much. I need a break and I can't go before April 2008. Oh no! That's when I am shifting to a new apartment!
In a way, I am stuck in this quagmire for some time now. And you are stuck with my posts of self pity!
*update(16/03/2008): I am well and thriving!
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I feel for you...Really there's no explaining to others how this time is for teachers. When you give your all, by Spring you are spent...and the mundane chores of grading and evaluating get tiresome and exhausting. It takes all your energy to evaluate in a matter that is constructive and meaningful. In your case with answer sheets, it seems like a job that will never end? I will pray a prayer of energy and renewal to get you through this time.
I understand the frustration of not being able to write the poetry you want. I haven't written for awhile because my head is full of "stuff" to do....hang tough
Thanks for joining in One Single Impression. I hope that kindness takes shape for you during this busy month.
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If we didn't all need kindness, it wouldn't be written about so much. I hope your are offered much kindness and in a day or two you are filled with energy again.
you know, there is so much wisdom contained here in your few words. if we all took a moment to consider this sentiment & act accordlingly, the world would be all the more beautiful! i will try very hard to remember what you wrote the next time someone frustrates me.
Your body's probably telling you what you need right now (sleep) ... sounds to me like you're plain exhausted. Time for the end of the term to roll around. Hang in there and be kind to yourself!
rain on my dear... this may just be your turn to cry... i for one am really enjoying the pieces you are posting of a more personal nature... but then again... i am something of a voyeur......
I love being busy at work, but I hate being frantic--then I get to feeling like I just want to sleep and find that I'm not very productive--maybe I'll come to your pity party :)
I taught for 10 years and now how long March seems to last. It is the time of year when you need some extra kindness for yourself. Myabe you can work to change your perspective, since the situation is what it is. I know that no matter how bad a day I think I have had, I can always find 3 things that day to be grateful for. When I focus on thinking about that, how I feel changes.
Ah, we probably all need a little more kindness! The change of seasons seems to force a bit of personal change, I think. Hang in, rest up and be ready to hit the planks when your break comes!
I think your haiku was lovely and I hope truckloads of kindness radiate out to you from expected and unexpected sources.
There's a Hawaiian saying that says "energy flows where attention goes," and what I was taught to go with that was a blessing exercise that I find helpful especially when I'm down. Make special effort to notice and bless the beauty and positive things around you. If your feeling drained, bless the energy you do have... or take time to admire the boundless energy of some child or other being. It's kind of a fun experiment to play with and you never know but what it might help.
I loved your poem and your sharing.
It hardly sucks. We all need kindness when we run off the tracks, so this is true to life.
Hello, Gautami!
Excellent!
I loved this posting.
Have a good day
gautami,
It's always good to show are human side from time to time; it makes us more real to our blog friends.
rel
gautani,
Change are to our! duh, talk about the human side. ;)
rel
Not cheating at all, thanks for sharing this with the 3WW crew. I have a difficult time believing you lack for kindness coming your way, if I judge only from the comments every week on your blog. It seems a lot of people adore you!
deviant minds call
for something more exciting
jazz it up a bit
(sorry if this appears more than once, got an error on submit)
As I suffer from chronic fatigue syndrome, I know exactly how you feel.
Best to get it out by saying it.
I know exactly how you feel--as you saw from my post
Not sure if I need tension and constant distraction to be creative
paisley, voyeur that you claim to be, there is nothing for you to gloat on. Personal pieces,these might be however I am not revealing anything deeply personal. Even though my name is very much real, my place of residence is real, my poetry is real, I keep myself in. That is not for public display. My emotions are my own.
And spare me, I am not crying just to satisfy you!
My wife is a teacher and she is unbelievably proficient at getting her reports done. I would think that this is the worst part of the job but an essential element.
I feel your pain.
everybody needs some downtime once in a while. perhaps you can't afford it business-wise just yet but you can be kind to yourself in the meantime.
take care
Donn, I feel so privileged by your esteemed visit to my blog! Hey, I already evaluted the answersheets given to me(I posted this yesterday, rememeber?) and now on the tabulation part. Slack, me? No way!
Never let it be said that Gautami slacked on anything!
BTW, you cheered me up as you always do! For that you deserve a tiny hug!
exhausting to grade
papers in the evening once
the school day is done
Hugs and blessings,
Natural reaction to stress! Bring on the posts. Maybe your reader can help you feel better!
Well, selfpity or just plain facts, sometimes one really can ache for a break.
You can find my entry here: The Fire
Have a great day!
hurray you are done with evaluations, hats off to you teachers...it requires so much dedication...you can vent away and I will be hear to listen..I love everything you write
Rumor has it you're allowed to whine on your own blog :+)
Seriously though, hope you feel like you have more energy soon. Just remember, those poor kids have to study for those tests too, so if you're feeling generous, a day for everyone to have a nap wouldn't be uncalled for ;)
I like the haiku.
I don't think there's anything wrong with slacking off, don't we need to sometimes?
I think you need to listen to your body. Sleep can be very restorative. It must be what you need.
I get this way sometimes and it is so hard to get out of it! I teach too and sometimes I wish if I could have any superpower in the world it would simply be energy!! Sorry about the meds- that certainly doens't make it any better. My wish - for you- that you find a morsel of hope and light in your days, enough to re-invigorate your passions and carry you through!
But I do love your haiku! Sorry you are inundated with work...I hope it'll be finished soon. :)
I like this haiku--and the rest of your blog!
Yes, i think a little kindness is just what you need right now.
... i kinda like yr post it opens a window that we might not have been able to see thru... may the butterfly of kindness fly into your life.. always enjoy comin by for a visit...
(just a little note…b/c thrz another gal named littlewing in the poetry blog community im changing my name…OneMoreBeliever)
Very soon, spring break will be here. Then there will be 9 more weeks till school ends for the summer!
Thanks for your comment on my 3WW post! I like yours too. I find it amazing how different posts can be, after basing them on the same prompts!
Voila! The weekend arrives!
Blessings,
Linda
http://nickersandinkblog.blogspot.com
I can totally identify with excessive sleeping. Lately I've been sleeping until noon or later on Saturdays. I figure my body needs it. Maybe yours does too.
Thanks for visiting my blog!
oh I hear ya, Gautami. hear ya! but more power to you for doing one of the toughest jobs (teaching) and still manage your writing!! you surely aren't lazy!! :) good luck.
Sorry to arrive so late - Good use of the words. I hope the hard stuff will be over soon. From your physical complaints, it sounds like you're pregnant. ;-)
Bless your heart! Hang in there!!
Heather
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